about these "resolutions"...

     so...'new year's resolutions'. they may or may not be erroneous ("on both counts"...haha...), but we make 'em every year. 2011...get ready...here we come with our pretty much ridiculous promises that 'this year will be better than the last'. 'i'm going to do (___) to change myself and my life'. here i am, typing mine out...since those sassy experts say you're more likely to stick to them if you 'write them down'. so in 2011, i resolve to: 


this space is to build anticipation and for me to think about how realistic it is for me to accomplish the following...


1. get into His word more-
     the Bible is the word of our gracious, merciful, and forgiving Lord, it will change your life...check it. that being said...i need to be in it MORE, def can't hurt!


2. take it eaaaaasy-
     yeah...ok...newsflash...i'm a little nuts...my family even made up a hilarious song about it...(it's funny because it's true!), my extremely talented sisters can sing it for you at anytime. i LOVE helping others, being particular, and pushing my body to extremes...consider me busted. i want to try and learn that does not mean i have to make every single detail perfect ahead of time, or, really, just any day in general. it's weird and, frankly, it's kinda creepmo (yeah, i like that made-up word). also, i would like to not lash out when someone has the audacity to speak to me before my morning coffee and/or workout. to those who have experienced my wrath, i'm truly sorry, and be comforted knowing i'm working on it. i want to LAUGH more too...i LOVE laughing!


3. stop having such an insanely competitive personality-
     i'll aim to not cry, be repulsively irritable, or unbearable to those around me for at least 2 days after (if) the badgers lose...at anything, or, God forbid, the packers lose. i deem being outrageously furious after not winning at cards, scattegories, apples to apples, or any game, revolting. i'll aspire to not do so. i love my sisters soooo much (<3 soror!), but introducing me to twitter (follow me....raaarrrrr), seriously...no good for a psycho like me! i can't stop, i have a full-up 'excessive celebration' every time i get a new follower! thank you those who are my terrific, patient followers...why do you? i don't know...but you're great! shout out to my newest followers!!!! my poor phone needs to be charged every 10 seconds, and i'm annoying. it's sad the world has to deal with me.


*PLEASE* help your girl out with 3, 4, & 5...don't tell me about anything  you truly enjoy/that is cool/are good at, and want to have for yourself as your own personal, private hobby. i'm inappropriately competitive. soooo just don't do it...or i'll try to beat you at whatever it is. i know...it's pathetic...i'm sorry! if it's boring, or hard to learn in more than a few days, then, by all means, go right ahead. i can't and vehemently refuse to knit, crochet, or make a quilt. needles and i have a bad relationship going, one i do not plan to re-kindle. please...for the love of God...don't talk trash to me about the badgers or packers!!! or else: half my resolutions=down the drain.


4. be nicer to strangers-
     it's no secret i LOVE the badgers/packers/sports, however, that doesn't authorize me to actually flex on and scowl at someone sporting ohio state, iowa, vikings, bears, and/or another school or team i hate's apparel. i'll also refrain from saying that person is 'the dumbest person ever' for liking said (wrong) team. it's an absurd exaggeration and i get indecently angry...which results in people being strongly disinterested in spending time with me and isn't helping me gain friends!


5. change my vocabulary to reflect my positive attitude-
     stop saying "i'm going to kill...(anyone/anything)"! everyone who knows me (i hope!) has total and utter confidence i'd absolutely never kill anyone/anything. so why do i say it? no, vanessa (vnast), just because that person can't properly operate a "roundabout/traffic circle", or (probably the same person) cuts me off because they're in some kind of "hurry", or is over the center line because they can't safely manage their own vehicle does NOT equal the level of rage to justify me yelling "i'm going to kill...you person driving a silly (insert make/model here)!". i'm a Christian people, NOT a driving instructor or professional, and i gotta work on that!
     replace "if" with "when", "could" with "will", and "eventually" with "a PLANNED time and date"! this might help me eliminate procrastination and selling myself short.

6. be more loving to my mom and my super sweet puppy dog-

     ok, so...she's certainly a bit off her rocker, but she's a tremendous mom, and i love her! i'm here, kickin' it, because of her! she's the person i want to see when i'm sick or sad, she supports me in all i do, and she's a genius. i know...you can't bring yourself to admit it when you're younger...but as you get older (sisters)...you'll grow to understand.

     little zekey bear is an undeniably fantastic dog. he's the best dog on the planet. you're girl's got extremely high standards and when he doesn't meet them within, what i consider to be a reasonable timeframe, i get frustrated. i need to give the huge (i call him 'little' because, in my mind, he is my 'little boy'...he weighs almost 90 lbs) guy a break. i need to make a genuine effort to NOT act out of anger with him. i regret it, realize the error of my ways, and have to apologize for days (or in zeke's case...buy him too many presents)! i'm his 'alpha male', when his 'hackles' go up...you best 'chickety-check yo'self before you wreck yo'self cotton'. yeah, he's gonna kick your butt if you try and mess with me...

7. do more yoga!-
     it helps sooo much! as a lifelong athlete wannabe and aspiring runner i was the definition of skeptic about yoga. i'm thrilled my friend introduced me and convinced me to try it! it makes me less anxious, waaaay more relaxed, helps me tune-in creatively, and it's a new challenge! shockingly, i'm NOT too flexible! zekey bear likes to lay peacefully next to me while i practice, so, added bonus!


     so here's a solid toast to 2011...let's make it better! i'll give it my best shot...will you?